NOSTALGIA

As I emptied my mind,
closed my eyes and heard.

Horns Bellowing in my ears,

and rustling of the leaves. 

I felt the bamboo Trees
sway to the tunes of 
melodious flute.


As the  sun sets, 
the twilight hues washed over the sky. 
Reminiscent of the fears, sorrows. 
The sky broke into a symphony
of unrequited love.

As, myriad thoughts rose 
in silence of the skies.

The waves of thoughts,
tides of tormenting memories
swept by nostalgia. 

I now recoiled 
at the sight of the present
as I embarked the journey to the past. 
I relived the ephemeral joys of youth 
the lyrical bouts of laughter.

Winged hopes of  never ending bliss

Stole a moment 
from the maker of the dreams.

As I lived,
the silence of the skies.

MY REFLECTION

On being me.

 

Have you ever wondered how you got to the place you are? Pretty soon you’re retracing the steps of your life, back through memories like pages in a book, or a film I guess.

 

It could be as simple as being introduced to a new person that eventually becomes a lifelong friend or mate (or both). It could be more intricate, events that are woven deep into the fabric of life like exposing your kids to art, music and stories. It is only through the passing of all the everyday’s when suddenly you realize that they are now exposing music and art and their own stories to you.

 

I have friends that can do things I can never do but their passion only inspires me to be better. Friends that have come and gone, friends that I can only see on some days, friends that are friends no matter how much time passes without anything and friendships that destructed from not following the same principles.

 

How did I get here, to the place or rather the person I am now? Seems like a simple question compared with asking why am I here and yet the answer is as elusive. I guess I’ll just keep doing what I do and see how the story ends.

 

But as of now am elated at what i see.

Accept the Responsibilities

When we first enter into our relationship we have these dreams and hopes about how it is going to be. We see the future as bright and sunny with not a cloud on the horizon. It takes only a few years, if things are going well, to find that perhaps our dream is not happening. There are clouds and more than a few and they are not on the horizon, they are here and guess what it's raining. Now what? Is our relationship over, are we done? Unfortunately in today's disposable world many people think so and end their relationship at the first sign of storm clouds.

Any relationship will have days when there is no sunshine, when the clouds threaten to overpower us. No relationship is easy all the time, every relationship needs some effort. I guess any relationship worth having is worth working for. When talking about our relationships it seems somewhat daunting or awkward to say it needs work. Work usually means doing hard things, things we "have" to do, sometimes things we really don't want to do.

Relationship work can be all of the above but, it can also be fun, exciting and very rewarding. If there are issues affecting the relationship that are individual to one of the partners they need to address and deal with those, this can be that hard work. If there are resentments and problems between the two of you this can be hard to work out as well.

Other types of relationship work can be fun and exciting.To keep the connections strong and true in your relationship can be very fun and exciting.Most of relationship work involves just living in the moment, being present and being aware of what is going on in your and your partner's life.

"Doing nothing sometimes hurts more than doing something." If we go through life and our relationship doing nothing, guess what will happen in that relationship. You're right; nothing will happen and I can tell you that can hurt. Putting our partner's needs on an even plane as our own is one example of working on your relationship. It's rewards are that our partner feels and understands that they are important and equal with us, that we desire their best as much as we desire our own.

Anything worth having, as in a great relationship with the one we love, is worth working for. Worth caring about, worth looking for the win-win in every situation. It's about respect and dignity, about caring and sharing, about doing the things that we know should be done and finding out things we don't know about and doing them as well. Love is a great gift that we having been given. But we need to understand that it comes with responsibilities. Accept the love, accept the responsibilities.

It is a lesson that am yet to learn.